fucked up
From Longman Dictionary of Contemporary Englishfucked upˌfucked ˈup adjective taboo spoken 1 SAD/UNHAPPYvery unhappy and confused, so that you cannot control your life properly → messed upAfter three years with Johnny, I was completely fucked up.2 (also fucked) completely broken or in a very bad conditionThese speakers are fucked up.3 American English having drunk too much alcohol or taken illegal drugs