mortification
/ˌmɔːtɪfɪˈkeɪʃn
/noun [mass noun]
1Great embarrassment and shame: they mistook my mortification for an admission of guilt
Synonyms
embarrassment, humiliation, chagrin, discomfiture, discomposure, awkwardness, shame, loss of face
subduing, suppression, subjugation, control, controlling, restraint;
disciplining, chastening, punishment, denying
2The action of subduing one’s bodily desires: mortification of the flesh has a long tradition in some religions